Insomnia

Horrible, Horrible, Horrible!!! I woke up this morning at 4:16 and for the life of me could not go back to sleep:( ugh hate hate hate hate!!!

And I was going to get out of bed this morning and write all my thoughts down in my blog then, however the darn light of the computer screen would have woken up some of my family members and they would not have appreciated that.

So why did I suddenly wake up at 4:16 this morning?? I have a feeling it is because of an unwanted nightmare about me getting trapped in a room with devil cats that wanted to give me a needle that would knock me out. and then a psychotic rat would come and untie the rope that would have been fastened around my hands and ankles. Strange I know, but kinda freaky.

And then, I don't know why, but I thought I heard some weird sounds through-out the house and that got me paranoid, as if some bad guy was creeping around my house at a quarter after four in the morning.

So over all not a good night, and then I couldn't go back to sleep. So got out of bed at 8:00 all bright and cheery (to an extent). Hopefully sleep will come quickly, and last till morning tonight:)

A Tad Stressed

Okay, so like everyone else during this marvelous Christmas season, I am stressed. And it's only really about one little thing and that is my parents Christmas gift.

What my brothers and sister and I are making is a family crest for my folks, because we don't have one as now a days they aren't as popular. So I have bought a canvas and in the background drew the outline of the crest and some of the detailing that will go around it...but the only real painting any of us has done, is one layer of the background. As the background is going to be the four of our hand prints. So only two of us have done our hand prints and now the other two siblings still have to. Then we have to paint our symbols inside the crest and then I have to do all the detailing.

You may be asking why me, because I am the artist in the family and can work a paintbrush to an extent. The thing that gets me though is that Christmas is two days away and when under pressure I just want to get things done so then they get sloppy and I really want this painting to be prefect as it will symbolize our family.

I guess the only thing that I can do is calm down, take a couple breaths and take my time. As when I think about it, it is a lot of time to get something done:)

Merry Christmas

4 Letter Word: Begins with 'S' Ends with 'Now'

SNOW!!!!! Heck YES!!!

Man I am finished all my exams which means let the holidays begin!!!
Back home with the family and it feels great:)
However being in the city we have absolutely no snow!! and I mean none. It is cold as ever from the wind meaning that my new scarf and hat are coming in handy. But there is no snow on the ground at all.

And then I come back home which is north of the city and holy cow is there snow. No accidents that my dad and I saw on the way home....but there could have been. I mean we went over one part and you could tell there was ice underneath the tires. CRAZY!!! It is a winter wonderland up here and I LOVE IT!!!!
The trees are all snow covered, fire in the fireplace which smells so good:) soup, hot chocolate, apple cider:) ahhhh now this is the season to be jolly:)

I get to bundle up and read a good book, or paint, or play video games with the brothers as oh didn't I mention, they got a snow day today. Lucky buggers:)

This is the best time of the year:) Winter has arrived:) YAY for the SNOW!!!

Heart Break

[Sigh] I officially think I am somewhat heart broken:(

See here's the thing, last weekend I went and visited my sister. And she goes to a University which is located right by a couple of colleges. And so on the Friday night we went out to a bar, just her roommates, her and I. And we had an awesome time, having a drink talking singing with the live singer and such. It was fun:)

But then on Saturday night we went out to a local club. And this is where it starts to get confusing. Because then her boyfriend showed up and brought a couple of really good looking friends. One was particularly smitten with me. And let me tell you he was pretty darn cute:) Great smile! Great dancer:) Friendly:) Just the kind of guy I am looking for. We danced for practically the whole time he was there and I could not wipe a smile off my face:) But then at about 2:15am he had to go and meet a friend, and I am thinking ask for my number....but he doesn't. Or he doesn't even try to make a move or anything:( And I am kinda disappointed:(
So I spend the Saturday once I get home thinking about him and if he is gonna add me on facebook, or what should I do?? Should I add him??? I end up asking my friends what I should do and text my sister and ask her her thoughts on the matter. But end up adding him on facebook before anyone gets back to me, because I thought I would lose the nerve.

Now, we have talked once. And I am unsure if he even likes me or thought I was cute or anything. I mean it doesn't help that we live in completely different cities, almost 3 hours apart driving distance.

So at the end of it all, I am slightly heart broken. Maybe he was just a guy that came along for the night. Following the saying "Everything happens for a reason" so maybe he was just meant to provide me with company for the night and afterwards not stay in my life. But I wish it was the complete opposite. I want him in my life, I feel like he would have been good for me:) Oh well, I guess time will tell:(

December

Oh my Goodness!!! I can't believe that we are already in December! And with December comes many events. Beginning with the weather!!! There was snow on the ground earlier in the week, YAY!!! however that does mean I am in need of investing in a hat to protect my ears:)

The next being EXAMS!!! Ugh and for an architectural student they are horrible:( The only good thing about them is I only have four exams. Which is not too bad because as of today I am 3/4 done:) Study Study Study and then as of December 13, I can relax:)

As well Christmas is in the air, particularly in the mall. I mean talk about people wanting to go shopping so they don't get everything last minute. Which is smart in my opinion. You don't want items to get sold out on you. Like this one item in MAC, they were already sold out and I couldn't believe it:) Not only that, I know some people just go into the mall to see the grand Christmas tree. Tis the season to be jolly:) YAY Christmas spirit:)

But December also has many other important holidays besides Christmas. Such as Hanukah, National Chocolate Covered Anything Day (16), Where a plunger on your head day (18), Kwanzaa, and many others.

 Its the month to get in the spirit, of whatever you are celebrating. So to get into the spirit, MERRY EARLY CHRISTMAS everyone:)

Frustrated:(

WOW!!! So trying to learn AutoCad is very very frustrating:(
I am sitting here on my laptop and trying to figure out how to draw lines which is very easy but then I zoom in, and then when I zoom out.....ugh I then can't see my whole rectangle and when I try to get my rectangle on the screen I lost the whole image I was trying to build and then could not find it:( ugh maybe I will just stick with adobe illustrator I know how to use that program. However if I keep putting off AutoCad then I will never learn it:(

Geez I wish it was just an easy program to use. And perhaps it is once you know what you are doing. Maybe I just need someone to show me the ropes? I don't know. If I don't learn now, I want to learn over Christmas break, but see that's me just putting it off again:( Oh well.

Maybe I just have to sit down with it for a couple of hours, when I have more time and learn. Start with simple steps. Like I do know how to draw a rectangle and a circle. But I need to know how to walls for when I draw building plans and sections. That's it I will start simple, maybe that will get my hopes up:)

If anyone has any pointers let me know:)

My Two Front Teeth

"All I want for Christmas is my Two Front Teeth"
Ah that's all I wanted when I was 9. But that's not the case now. I don't know, for some reason this year I have no idea what I would like for Christmas? Its baffling, because usually there is something that I am in need of, but this year nothing and I have no idea what to get members of my family!!:(

But then today I had an epiphany!!!! I was checkin' out the New England Patriots game stats on the NFL website, because I am extremely devoted to the Patriots!! Favourite team ever!!! And there was a link to their shop. So they had jeans and ball caps, but now the site has Jerseys for women and that's what I would like, a Patriots Jersey. I have yet to decide though if it should be with my last name on the back and my favourite number or with the quarter back's name on it and his number....I think I will go with my name:) Here a photo above for help:)

But yeah, so now I know what I have in mind for Christmas, but what should I get the rest of my family. My sister is easy because hey I can go to the mall, into a clothing or make-up store and find anything. But the little men - hmmmmm I would suggest a board game or something, but I get them that every year or a t-shirt. And the rents, well last year I gave them towels with their names on them, I don't know, a bottle of wine or lottery tickets?? No, I guess I will just have to sit down and give it some thought:) Maybe create a list of ideas for each member of my family and then when I go shopping I will check out each item to see their price and their condition and then pick which one I like best:) That seems like the most sensible idea.

Well Happy Christmas shopping for everybody!

Luck

Today I had the best of luck catching the street-car's and subway trains on my way to and from school. It seemed like I just about made it on to each one, without running. I was extremely surprised, because usually I have to wait for each.

So what did I do about my so-called luck. Well I bought a couple of scratch tickets of course. And the first scratch ticket was disappointing and I didn't win anything, but the second one however I earned a total of 3 bucks. Just enough to go and get another one.

But what does luck mean exactly. Well according to my trusty Oxford Dictionary, Luck means success or failure apparently brought by chance. And overall I guess today just wasn't as lucky as I thought it would.

Is it sad that I was already beginning to think of what I would do with my winnings, had luck been on my side? Well, at least it brightened up my day and put a smile to my face.

I guess we can't by luck, we just have to make our own.
Good Luck Everyone

Clubin' Good Times

So, actually went out and celebrated my best friend's birthday!!! We pre-drank at her house, took a limo into the city and went clubin'!!!! Awesome good times!!

I was in a sexy black dress with white heels and if I do say so myself looked pretty hot:) lol but hey maybe that's just my confidence burst for the day:)

So I ended up getting really drunk and made out with a guy at the club. Then he added me on facebook. Hopefully he's not expecting anything...like a relationship:(

Overall had a good night. Took so many shots, was in so many photos, met a lot of great people:) Definate PARTY!!!! So why do I still have a headache!!! I just want it to go away. But I guess that is what I get for having a little too much to drink:)

Next time, if there is a next time. I want to walk out of a club and not stumble and rely on anyone to hold me up straight:) However, I can't make any promises, because you never really know what's gonna happen until it does:) Spontaneous!!

A night I will never forget!!

30

Does anyone know anything about The Thirty Years War??

I have a History essay written on the topic due on Thursday and I am having difficulties.
My thesis is that The Thirty Years War was one of the most meaningless wars of European history because nothing resulted from the war.

I am still trying to come up with my sub-topics and am struggling slightly.

Honestly I thought the topic was on something else entirely and would have looked so dumb if I handed in my paper on what I thought the Thirty Years War was actually. But then getting into books and papers I found out that it was on a war that holds no significance in Europe other than it happened. I probably should have started this essay about a week ago but other things come up and you get so busy studying for mid-terms and other projects it's just hard.
What I dislike was that I am friends with this boy in my class and he is in the business program at my school. Of course he started his essay two weeks ago and has been, how should I put this, bragging about his progress on his essay. He has more free time, its just that he doesn't seem to understand that he has it easy. And that Architecture is a much more demanding program than business. Not saying that business is an easy program and architecture is a hard program. It's just that my program has so many more deadlines than business that there is many more things that I have to account for, than he does. For example: he said that his program has 3 take home exams, well I'll be. what a shocker!! How simple? He can look up the answers, go online, ask classmates. My program, I have 5 exams all written and in a gym or classroom and I have to study for them! No open book! Not that I am complaining because I would much rather be in architecture than business any day, but he just doesn't realize that some people don't have what he has. Ugh!! so frustrating. I mean the guy is nice, i just don't think he realizes that he is bragging.

What a life.
Well if anyone has any ideas, or in depth knowledge of The Thirty Years War, let me know:)

Blogs in General

Blog: a personal website on which an individual records opinions, links to other sites, etc. on a regular basis

I was thinking about this yesterday, how do people begin to blog? Why?

I can only answer these questions because I have been there and know the answer, just like anyone else who begins their blog. But in truth, I believe people begin their blogs for completely different reasons. I started mine because I felt alone even though I always have someone near by and maybe, just maybe someone will read and understand what I have to say. I don't know. My blog in reality just gives me a space to write, imagine, think. Perhaps pose some questions with the hopes of someone else answering them or maybe posing their own questions on the same matter. Maybe I just want someone to listen. Is that selfish? Do I spend too much time listening to other people, and now maybe for a second I would like other people to listen to what I have to say. I don't know.

Wow I have strayed off topic:) I think a blog is personal. We talk about things we like. Show pictures of things we like and places to where we have been or where we would like to go. They are written are all over the world, written by tonnes of people with the hopes of being heard, in all different languages and dialects.
It's our way to make an impact. What do you think?? Why did you start your blog? Why are you still writing it?

Home Is Where the Heart Is

So for the weekend I have finally found myself back at home:)

I get to see my folks and my two younger brothers:) Nice and relaxing. However my day did not start out that way.
It began by me getting out of bed late this morning:( I was in a complete rush I didn't even get a chance to shower:( Yay! oh but then wait I had to catch the street car to get into the city and thank goodness now one sat beside me:) Then I had to transfer to the subway....which took forever. And you would think that on a Saturday morning they would still be fairly regular, but nope. From there I had arrived at my destination to catch my bus back home. and it turned out i had plenty of time. I had arrived half an hour early for my bus but still on the bus all the way home there was about ten people and I got a seat to myself.

Once home I just got to relax:) My dad made me some soup. Lit a fire in the fireplace and it felt like home. I get to sleep in my own bed tonight and just chill with the family.
Then tomorrow its Halloween and it will be nice to celebrate the holiday of candy with family and friends

I am just glad to be home, because there is no place like home:)

Chica Stereotype

So today was a day of crash tests then a night of relaxation:)
It is actually pretty awesome. I like when nights like this come around because they don't come around that often. But that's not what I want to talk about.

Today started early because in my first class of the day I had a seminar. Which required me to participate in a class discussions about the homework readings. And if I participate, naturally I get participation marks, so for me it is always a little stressful the night before that I understand the readings so when I contribute, my thoughts are significant. However, as much as I read or write, there are some things I just can't get a complete grasp on. So did I contribute to the seminar, yes I did and I think what I had to say was knowledgeable. Next time, I just have to have confidence.

The rough part of my day was the Mid-term I had afterwards. With 30 minutes before our scheduled start time, I was still studying my butt off. But at the end of the day, those were a prime 30 minutes:) The exam actually went fairly well and I come out of it feeling as if I did rather well. Although I won't exactly know my results for a couple weeks. So all I can do is  hope for the best.

After all that, I went to the MALL!!!! And went SHOPPING!!! Ugh, I spent money!!! I did have to buy my brother a birthday gift and did so. I bought it on special actually, way to go me. However, then I went into another store for me and found something I liked and couldn't help it. I know I am an impulse buyer, but I can't spend my money on clothes just because I want them. I have to save my money!!! Next time I spend please yell at me, maybe then I will get the message:(  Well at least I didn't spend it at Victoria's Secret. The line-up was huge (it did just open today). Maybe I will try going in there in a few weeks, then hopefully it won't be as busy:)

Well I covered my seminar, my mid-term and my trip to the mall. What an adventurous day I had today:)
What will tomorrow bring??

Vine Vine Vine

So the most awesome of field trips was perhaps visiting three vineyards all in one day down at Niagara-On-The-Lake:)

It was actually really informative. My classmates and I got to learn all about the grape rows and the importance of the right amount of airflow and optimal sunlight, meaning the rows, are for the majority pointed in the north south direction. As well the vines each have to be protected during the winter months as below 20 degrees Celsius the vines can begin to frost and then eventually die. And the owners don't want a plant to die because then if they plant a new vine in it's place, it won't produce grapes for a good 3 to 5 years.

We also looked at the fermentation process and how the grapes were sitting in these tanks and they have to do a lot of waiting before a wine can be actually sold in stores. Don't get me wrong I am not a specialist on vineyards and wine making. I just quickly learned about this today and I could very well be incorrect about some if this. At each of the vineyards we did visit they each have a barrel chamber, where the wine will sit and depending on the type (red or white) it might stay longer in the barrel. And the wine is put into a certain type of barrel to get the optimal taste and flavour.

It was all extremely interesting. Two of the vineyards were specifically hand-picked, meaning there would be no machines involved to get the grapes off the vines. Which I think a person needs to be really patient if they have that job.
Mainly our purpose for the field trip was to look at the architecture of the winery building and the circulation of the spaces because our next project is to design a winery at a site. So hopefully the ones we have visited will give us some inspiration and some ideas.

I can't forget the tasting of the wines of course. I can't say that I tried any but fellow classmates did and my professors:) I did buy a bottle of Red Wine though for my parents from Jackson and Triggs Winery, so I can only hope it is a good one:) Overall a very tiring day. We drove two hours to get to the wineries and then that means another two hours to get back, it was just a lot all crammed into about 5 hours (not including the driving time). Time for some well needed shut eye:)

Struggling

Today I am struggling with two things:
1. I have this huge project due on sunday
2. I have no idea what to write

So starting with problem 1. There is so much that I have to do for this project. I started my model, but tomorrow I have to finish it. And it looks like I will, but I don't want to rush it and then it will look horrible. So I have to take my time. But I also have to complete some of my drawings and then re-draw them on posters so they are all continuous and beautiful and before that even I have to think about my lay-out. Then I have to think about what I will say during my presentation. Ugh so much work to do so little time.

Then for point number 2, I originally had no idea what to write here. I mean I knew when I signed on that I wanted to write something. To somewhat get my thoughts out. But today there is no central topic. It just feels like I am once again complaining about my oh so hectic life. And I am sorry about that, honestly I am. I was going to talk about movies, but I talked about TV enough already and I want to save that topic for when a movie comes out that I either really like or seriously dislike. Planning ahead, smart thinking:)

I don't know, maybe today I just wanted to write something that had a little flow. And I think it does...to an extent. However, I am sitting here thinking to myself, how on earth did I write about nothing because that is basically what paragraph two is:)

I don't know my life is currently hectic, but I will make it through and my project will get done and I will use my mind and think tomorrow....at least I hope:)

That One Person

Has there ever been that one person in your life, either a co-worker, or fellow classmate, or boss or some sort of friend that you just can't stand???

Well there is one girl in my class who is just annoying. If you ever get into a conversation with her, I am sure it could go on for hours and you would never get a word in. Not only that but her voice would give you a headache. She puts her things everywhere making her somewhat disorganized. And her main group of friends aren't much better.

I realize I am complaining about this girl, but I can't possibly be the only one with this problem. There has to be someone like this in every one's lives. Those people you just have to get along with for the sake of it. And don't get me wrong she is nice and kind, it's just I don't think I could bare it if i had to sit beside her everyday. Thank goodness I don't.

I have come to the conclusion that I only have 2.5 more years with the girl. I think I can survive. And if I can't well then you will know because I will have stopped writing my blog:)

TV Drama!!!

I think I watch too much tv!!!

Is that a crime?? I like certain tv shows such as; Grey's Anatomy, The Big Bang Theory, Nikita, Castle and some others....cough cough. But am I allowed to like to watch a lot of tv. I am in no way a couch potato or anything. But when studying or drawing at my drafting board it is just nice to have something on in the background and I might turn and watch it for a minute or two then go back to work.

So yeah I follow the tv drama also of the CSI's (Las Vegas all the way), and maybe a little cheerleading with the Hellcats, Gossip Girl and during the summer I did watch Pretty Little Liars (not starting again till January 3). And who could forget Survivor or Amazing Race. But, as I list all these out it does make me think about the amount of time my tv is turned on. Which is an awful long period of time. On the otherhand though it also makes it seem like I have no social life at all. Hmm what a great way to portay myself; someone who sits on the edge of her bed, or standing by the drafting table watching tv either just to cool down or to just to have some other sound in the room. Yeah that would be me almost every night of the week. What a life!?

Although hey, I know I will never be a surgeon, cheerleader, crime specialist, someone living on the Upper East Side or a rogue spy, but it is nice to see someone else living that role and me sitting on the sidelines to watch:) So I will get caught up in the drama of someone else's life, for now it's just what I need:)

In a Rush

Okay today I have walked like I have never walked before:)

A couple of weeks ago, one of my classes was cancelled due to the prof being out of the country and today we had a make-up tutorial running from 1:00 to 4:00, however I have another class which starts at 4:00. So all is well in the make-up tutorial at first. I think that all my work is getting done and my friends and I have set a good pace for our tutorial. But then we have two questions left and there is 10 minutes before 4:00. I also have to add walking time to get to my 4:00 class, so thoughts are running through my mind....am I going to make it??

We finish the second last question, somewhat in a hurry and then it's up to the final question and there is five minutes left of the tutorial. Oh my goodness, this is cutting it a little close. We rush through the last question and I hand in my work (which is a relief), and book it out of my building. I then have to cross the street, which I have to wait for the traffic light. Once I have crossed the street I enter into the next building and I have to find the stairs to get up to the second level. Now on the second level I have to go to the opposite corner of the building for my 4:00 class. Lets just say, my feet booked it to that class (and I did not run or else other students would look at me funny). I made it to the door at 4:05 and have never been happier that the classes start ten minutes after there official start time:)

What a day:) And then I have never been happier to find out that my morning class tomorrow has been cancelled:) Sleeping in all the way!!!

Stressed Out of My Mind!!

Ugh!!! So much work to do so little time!!!
I always seem to just want to sit down and read a good book, or actually watch a little televison (not that I am a couch potato or anything), but I have projects after projects after projects all going on and all due at the same time!!! And it sucks. Why can't the people making up my class schedule realize that having one due date on tuesday for example and another on wednesday is not alot of time!!! I understand that I have to time manage and organize my hours on how much time I must spend on one project and an equal amount of time on the other, but give us students a break!!! We will end up pulling all nighters and then in your lecture the next day when we hand in the project we are dead and end up sleeping through your class:( Ugh it just sucks!!

I get so frustrated because I want to do a good job, and get a good mark, so I try and try and try. But every now and then cool it down and let up out loads so we students, especially us architectural students, can acctually have a social life. So we can play intermural sports or go shopping or go out on a friday or saturday night!!!!

Sorry, I am a good student, I promise and have yet to hand in anything late. But everything I hand in, I want to have no regrets. Its just stressfull at times and I need to find a way to let it all out and I guess this blog is kind of my stress reliever. I know I am complaining about lack of time, yet here I am writing. It took up maybe 10 minutes of my time. If I want to watch that television show are read a couple chapters of my book I need that couple of hours. Ugh!!! Give me a life school!!!

Coupley Feeling

Why is it that everywhere I look in the city I see couples?

They are either holding hands walking down the street, or sitting in a cafe window gazing into eachothers eyes (dramatic I know), or stopping at the cross walk and give eachother a quick kiss godbye before they head in different directions. It just reminds me even more that I am single.

Don't get me wrong it is cute to see an elderly couple walking down the street together holding hands just for the sake of being together. And to see young love just start up where there is two people walking down the street with their hands almost touching but not quite, there is the uncertainty of whether the other person thinks it would be okay or not. It's all cute and adorable. But I want to feel that way, and it just makes it so much harder to see that other people have what I want.

Like my sister for example, she is dating a guy in the navy and they are just cute together. They sit beside eachother on the couch. They sneak in a kiss when they think no one is looking. Talk on the phone at least twice a day to eachother when they are apart. They write cute messages on their facebook walls. No I promise I am not my sisters stalker, we just talk about things, it's that sisterly connection. I promise.

So when can it be my turn? I guess the first step would be to find a guy, so I have to take that step into the world, grab up some courage when I see a guy I think is cute and blabber...I mean talk. That would be my first step. And for all of those who are in the same shoes I am, I say good luck because I know just how hard it really is.

So as I take my first step into the world of couples (whenever that day will come, I should probably do that soon so I stop complaining) I will be brave and myself. Good Luck!!

Wishes Don't Always Come True

WOW!! Today is the beginning of my blogging career. I have no idea how I got here but hopefully, maybe it will allow me to express some of the things I am feeling inside.

But beginning with my thoughts for the day:
Am I allowed to say that wishes never come true. Maybe never is a strong word, like I noted in the title perhaps better wording would be that wishes DON'T always come true. As much as sometimes I wish they would. For example, I am single and I wish a guy would come into my life and sweep me off my feet. I can blow out the candles on my birthday cake, or see a shooting star, or blow on an eyelash, but that only leaves me waiting. But how long should I wait? Or should I make the the same wish twice? Are you even allowed to do that? Does that make it come true faster? These are all the things I was wondering today while looking up at the moon and making a wish as if the moon holds all my answers. So will I ever get answers to my questions? Has anyone ever made a wish and actually realized it has come true?

I looked up the definition for the word wish in the Oxford Dictionary and it states: a desire for something that cannot or probably will not happen. How depressing is the dictionary? But let me mention a couple of the other things I have wished for; I have wished to break my leg, for a dog, to fall in love (with what or who I have no idea), to win the lottery (but who hasn't made that wish) and many others. However, now thinking about it, a lot of my wishes are really selfish. Is that only me or should I be making wishes to come up with a cure for cancer, or to end poverty?

All I can say is Wishes hardly ever come true (not considering the Children's Wish Foundation which is an entirely different idea) Think about it and I mean really think about it. So I will end my very first blog with the wish I asked for at the beginning, I wish to find a guy who will sweep me off my feet. I will be sure to let you know if it happens, but a heads up, probably won't happen any time soon.