Man I haven't written here in a while...why I am re-starting now, I have no idea, maybe this will just be a one time thing. Except for there are words in my head that I just want to get out there. And I don't want to put them on facebook for everyone to see. Here - I am anonymous. I can say just how I am feeling...as is no blurring around the edges or leaving something out...I can just tell my story and not care what anyone else has to say (maybe that's selfish).
My life is boring. I feel as if I am stuck in this rut that I can't get out of. I just want to go away - go on an adventure. Where to...I don't know. I want to run from my fears. I want to hide from my mistakes. I want to just 'escape' (the perfect word) from this rut that I have gotten myself into and just...I don't know.
But I know I can't. I have this wicked assignment due on Monday that I have to finish. I have my best friends birthday next weekend that I have to go to. I have all these other commitments that I have made that I can't just drop everything and leave as much as I want to. What about my family, friends?
I keep telling myself that one day...one day I will work up the courage to do it; one day I will be brave enough. And it doesn't even have to be for a long period of time, maybe only for a weekend or a week.
And now thinking about it twenty minutes later....it just sounds like I need a vacation.
Sunday, March 3, 2013
Saturday, January 22, 2011
There is No Place like Home
For the weekend I am back home, spendin' time with the family. And it is awesome:)
I should mention my family and I always have a great time together:)
Sometimes instead of going out with friends, I will stay in. And all six of us will sit down around the table and play a game of cards, like clue, or phase 10, shang-hi rummy. Or something of the kind. When we were younger, we would always get upset or tired if we never won or stayed up rather late, so back then the games were usually cut short. But now-a-days, we will sit the whole game out and will always end up laughing at one thing or another. We always have a good time:)
Not to mention, it's nice to come home and have a home cooked meal (because when I make it, it always tastes different) and I get to sleep in my own bed. It's where I grew up. It's just always good to be home.
I feel like I get to rest and relax. Yes, I help out with dishes and cleaning up around the house, but it's chores and nice to help out at the same time.
Lots of hugs and kisses and you can tell my parents are glad to have my sister and I back from University. My brothers are happy too, but my parents are just glad to have my sis and I around.
Home: is where the heart is. And I wouldn't have it any other way:)
Sometimes instead of going out with friends, I will stay in. And all six of us will sit down around the table and play a game of cards, like clue, or phase 10, shang-hi rummy. Or something of the kind. When we were younger, we would always get upset or tired if we never won or stayed up rather late, so back then the games were usually cut short. But now-a-days, we will sit the whole game out and will always end up laughing at one thing or another. We always have a good time:)
Not to mention, it's nice to come home and have a home cooked meal (because when I make it, it always tastes different) and I get to sleep in my own bed. It's where I grew up. It's just always good to be home.
I feel like I get to rest and relax. Yes, I help out with dishes and cleaning up around the house, but it's chores and nice to help out at the same time.
Lots of hugs and kisses and you can tell my parents are glad to have my sister and I back from University. My brothers are happy too, but my parents are just glad to have my sis and I around.
Home: is where the heart is. And I wouldn't have it any other way:)
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
E-mails you don't receive on time
What would I give to have checked my email last night at 10:00?? I don't know. All I know is that today I found out that an email had been sent out last night and it said that we (architecture students) should bring our laptops to my one class. And do you think I checked my email at 10:00pm last night, NO. I had checked it earlier in the evening with no important messages to report. So I was one of 2 or 3 students who did not bring their computer to class, and I felt terrible. If only the email had been sent out sooner, then all would be well and I wouldn't have looked like such an idiot:(
But I plucked right along and worked along side a neighbour, however it felt strange. I guess from now on I will have to check my email as soon as I get home from school, and right before I go to bed. And I thought I checked it regularly enough as it was, but I guess not:(
I know this is about me complaining about the latest and fastest means of communication, but sometimes, I wish profs would just come right out and tell us what they want us to bring and then I could make a note in my notebook. I mean the email was a last minute thing. Ugh it just makes me slightly frustrated. Oh well. It is over and done with now, something to learn from. Always check your emails right before you go to bed:) lesson learned for the day.
But I plucked right along and worked along side a neighbour, however it felt strange. I guess from now on I will have to check my email as soon as I get home from school, and right before I go to bed. And I thought I checked it regularly enough as it was, but I guess not:(
I know this is about me complaining about the latest and fastest means of communication, but sometimes, I wish profs would just come right out and tell us what they want us to bring and then I could make a note in my notebook. I mean the email was a last minute thing. Ugh it just makes me slightly frustrated. Oh well. It is over and done with now, something to learn from. Always check your emails right before you go to bed:) lesson learned for the day.
Sunday, January 16, 2011
2011
Happy 2011!!
How weird is that to write on the page on all my notes, 2011? I keep putting 2010 because for the last year that is what I have been writing, oh well, I guess over time it will come naturally:)
But other than that, nothing really exciting has happened to be this year so far. Okay well I did have my first New Year's Kiss, and that was a good way to start the new year ;) The story is, I was at a four day architecture conference which goes on every year around new years. It's a gathering of a bunch of Universities from Canada, United States and a couple other international countries. And they have a ball on New Year's night. So I ended up meeting a boy on December 31st at the ball, we danced and shared a New Year's kiss together. And then after that night, never spoke or saw him again. He was cute, don't get me wrong, but me being Canadian and him American, nothing was ever going to happen, which is fine with me.
And now classes start tomorrow and that means back to reading textbooks that have cost me a fortune, late nights, not sleeping enough, and partying with friends:) I can already feel that this semester will be the best one ever:) however in a couple weeks, I will probably be complaining about my full workload and no social life:( YAY totally can't wait! (sarcasm)
Did I mention that I have even yet to give myself a New Year's Resolution! I have been that out of it. Last year I think it was that I would find a boyfriend - like that happened, but I did go on a couple dates. Maybe this year, it will be to be myself, I will be open to anything that comes my way. Maybe I will try something new, travel somewhere, and maybe just maybe fall in love. I guess I will have to wait and see:)
So Happy 2011 everyone, may it be the year of everything you hoped for:)
How weird is that to write on the page on all my notes, 2011? I keep putting 2010 because for the last year that is what I have been writing, oh well, I guess over time it will come naturally:)
But other than that, nothing really exciting has happened to be this year so far. Okay well I did have my first New Year's Kiss, and that was a good way to start the new year ;) The story is, I was at a four day architecture conference which goes on every year around new years. It's a gathering of a bunch of Universities from Canada, United States and a couple other international countries. And they have a ball on New Year's night. So I ended up meeting a boy on December 31st at the ball, we danced and shared a New Year's kiss together. And then after that night, never spoke or saw him again. He was cute, don't get me wrong, but me being Canadian and him American, nothing was ever going to happen, which is fine with me.
And now classes start tomorrow and that means back to reading textbooks that have cost me a fortune, late nights, not sleeping enough, and partying with friends:) I can already feel that this semester will be the best one ever:) however in a couple weeks, I will probably be complaining about my full workload and no social life:( YAY totally can't wait! (sarcasm)
Did I mention that I have even yet to give myself a New Year's Resolution! I have been that out of it. Last year I think it was that I would find a boyfriend - like that happened, but I did go on a couple dates. Maybe this year, it will be to be myself, I will be open to anything that comes my way. Maybe I will try something new, travel somewhere, and maybe just maybe fall in love. I guess I will have to wait and see:)
So Happy 2011 everyone, may it be the year of everything you hoped for:)
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Insomnia
Horrible, Horrible, Horrible!!! I woke up this morning at 4:16 and for the life of me could not go back to sleep:( ugh hate hate hate hate!!!
And I was going to get out of bed this morning and write all my thoughts down in my blog then, however the darn light of the computer screen would have woken up some of my family members and they would not have appreciated that.
So why did I suddenly wake up at 4:16 this morning?? I have a feeling it is because of an unwanted nightmare about me getting trapped in a room with devil cats that wanted to give me a needle that would knock me out. and then a psychotic rat would come and untie the rope that would have been fastened around my hands and ankles. Strange I know, but kinda freaky.
And then, I don't know why, but I thought I heard some weird sounds through-out the house and that got me paranoid, as if some bad guy was creeping around my house at a quarter after four in the morning.
So over all not a good night, and then I couldn't go back to sleep. So got out of bed at 8:00 all bright and cheery (to an extent). Hopefully sleep will come quickly, and last till morning tonight:)
And I was going to get out of bed this morning and write all my thoughts down in my blog then, however the darn light of the computer screen would have woken up some of my family members and they would not have appreciated that.
So why did I suddenly wake up at 4:16 this morning?? I have a feeling it is because of an unwanted nightmare about me getting trapped in a room with devil cats that wanted to give me a needle that would knock me out. and then a psychotic rat would come and untie the rope that would have been fastened around my hands and ankles. Strange I know, but kinda freaky.
And then, I don't know why, but I thought I heard some weird sounds through-out the house and that got me paranoid, as if some bad guy was creeping around my house at a quarter after four in the morning.
So over all not a good night, and then I couldn't go back to sleep. So got out of bed at 8:00 all bright and cheery (to an extent). Hopefully sleep will come quickly, and last till morning tonight:)
Thursday, December 23, 2010
A Tad Stressed
Okay, so like everyone else during this marvelous Christmas season, I am stressed. And it's only really about one little thing and that is my parents Christmas gift.
What my brothers and sister and I are making is a family crest for my folks, because we don't have one as now a days they aren't as popular. So I have bought a canvas and in the background drew the outline of the crest and some of the detailing that will go around it...but the only real painting any of us has done, is one layer of the background. As the background is going to be the four of our hand prints. So only two of us have done our hand prints and now the other two siblings still have to. Then we have to paint our symbols inside the crest and then I have to do all the detailing.
You may be asking why me, because I am the artist in the family and can work a paintbrush to an extent. The thing that gets me though is that Christmas is two days away and when under pressure I just want to get things done so then they get sloppy and I really want this painting to be prefect as it will symbolize our family.
I guess the only thing that I can do is calm down, take a couple breaths and take my time. As when I think about it, it is a lot of time to get something done:)
Merry Christmas
What my brothers and sister and I are making is a family crest for my folks, because we don't have one as now a days they aren't as popular. So I have bought a canvas and in the background drew the outline of the crest and some of the detailing that will go around it...but the only real painting any of us has done, is one layer of the background. As the background is going to be the four of our hand prints. So only two of us have done our hand prints and now the other two siblings still have to. Then we have to paint our symbols inside the crest and then I have to do all the detailing.
You may be asking why me, because I am the artist in the family and can work a paintbrush to an extent. The thing that gets me though is that Christmas is two days away and when under pressure I just want to get things done so then they get sloppy and I really want this painting to be prefect as it will symbolize our family.
I guess the only thing that I can do is calm down, take a couple breaths and take my time. As when I think about it, it is a lot of time to get something done:)
Merry Christmas
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
4 Letter Word: Begins with 'S' Ends with 'Now'
SNOW!!!!! Heck YES!!!
Man I am finished all my exams which means let the holidays begin!!!
Back home with the family and it feels great:)
However being in the city we have absolutely no snow!! and I mean none. It is cold as ever from the wind meaning that my new scarf and hat are coming in handy. But there is no snow on the ground at all.
And then I come back home which is north of the city and holy cow is there snow. No accidents that my dad and I saw on the way home....but there could have been. I mean we went over one part and you could tell there was ice underneath the tires. CRAZY!!! It is a winter wonderland up here and I LOVE IT!!!!
The trees are all snow covered, fire in the fireplace which smells so good:) soup, hot chocolate, apple cider:) ahhhh now this is the season to be jolly:)
I get to bundle up and read a good book, or paint, or play video games with the brothers as oh didn't I mention, they got a snow day today. Lucky buggers:)
This is the best time of the year:) Winter has arrived:) YAY for the SNOW!!!
Man I am finished all my exams which means let the holidays begin!!!
Back home with the family and it feels great:)
However being in the city we have absolutely no snow!! and I mean none. It is cold as ever from the wind meaning that my new scarf and hat are coming in handy. But there is no snow on the ground at all.
And then I come back home which is north of the city and holy cow is there snow. No accidents that my dad and I saw on the way home....but there could have been. I mean we went over one part and you could tell there was ice underneath the tires. CRAZY!!! It is a winter wonderland up here and I LOVE IT!!!!
The trees are all snow covered, fire in the fireplace which smells so good:) soup, hot chocolate, apple cider:) ahhhh now this is the season to be jolly:)
I get to bundle up and read a good book, or paint, or play video games with the brothers as oh didn't I mention, they got a snow day today. Lucky buggers:)
This is the best time of the year:) Winter has arrived:) YAY for the SNOW!!!
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