Man I haven't written here in a while...why I am re-starting now, I have no idea, maybe this will just be a one time thing. Except for there are words in my head that I just want to get out there. And I don't want to put them on facebook for everyone to see. Here - I am anonymous. I can say just how I am feeling...as is no blurring around the edges or leaving something out...I can just tell my story and not care what anyone else has to say (maybe that's selfish).
My life is boring. I feel as if I am stuck in this rut that I can't get out of. I just want to go away - go on an adventure. Where to...I don't know. I want to run from my fears. I want to hide from my mistakes. I want to just 'escape' (the perfect word) from this rut that I have gotten myself into and just...I don't know.
But I know I can't. I have this wicked assignment due on Monday that I have to finish. I have my best friends birthday next weekend that I have to go to. I have all these other commitments that I have made that I can't just drop everything and leave as much as I want to. What about my family, friends?
I keep telling myself that one day...one day I will work up the courage to do it; one day I will be brave enough. And it doesn't even have to be for a long period of time, maybe only for a weekend or a week.
And now thinking about it twenty minutes later....it just sounds like I need a vacation.
